So little that you wanted...So much that i wasn't.

Looking at it, as it is, seems vaguely strange, vaguely known...
Gray-on-gray circles of smoke, dark, dull, gloom and yet i see you home.
If it's just the hope, it's dying a slow death...
With you gone, i don't feel the rain, don't see the sun.

What took me so long to realize what i did, as i did, seems so not me, yet so me...
When all that mattered was your presence, you let me be, i set you free.
Every morning now, all i do is yell your name, it's so not me, yet so me...
I live with you, have always been, my distant tale, my only story.

I look upon ways to reach you, to be with you, seems so not me, yet so me...
But I'm just a ghost of this road, on my own, counting ways and days to be.
All i need is you, you may have forgotten, you may still know...
Wishing for an end to this road, the one that takes me to you.. or you to me

Never knew, it took so much to fake those smiles, so not me, yet so me...
Never knew, to live again, every once in a while, i had to act like i didn't care.
Yes every night as i walk home, my eyes just well up, and i stand back, aware.
I am with you, and you're with me, but so much so, it's just untrue.

Maybe tomorrow, i would just live on, being without you, but not the same me.
Or maybe all i'll ever need is you, all i'll ever want is you,
It seems so little that we'd hoped for, so much that we'd known.
And i fail to answer why but...
"Seems so little that you wanted, so much that i wasn't"