If Life Could Go On...Just This Way!

If life could go on just this way,
Very few things I would never be able to change.
A vibe from the past we carry today,
Or even the good things that barely did stay.

Things like the oddly timed calls I've come to expect,
Or the fights that shatter my every breath.
All the moments and gestures that make my day,
Or words you struggle to genuinely say.
Nothing may ever change again,
If life could go on just this way.

But then life is not bound by scripts, they say.
No questions you ask can help ease the pain.
But when we understand and give up on the fight, 
And talk of every unspoken word from the previous night.
The If's and Why's become words that don't matter,
And You and I grow stronger together.

For, in a heartbeat, you know you are special.
But rhyming words don't always dazzle.
Funny how some things you hate always get to stay.
But most things in life we would never want to change,
You will always be loved and cared for, come what may.
If life could go on just this way! Our lives would go on just this way!!

No stranger...

A week long dull, of gloom and lull,
A coherent silence around...
Mounds of silt and flowers strewn,
And all I hear is the lonely hound.

Yes I've known, I've always known,
You've told me how it's gonna be.
And yet, in silence, i close my eyes,
Not to pray, no not now. Not to pray, but to see.

I walk down cold, I walk down slow,
I look ahead but stare into nowhere...
Is the road just as lost as this heart,
Or is it just dark? Or were you never there?

I sit in tears and  flip these pages now,
Contemplating if this would last...
With this gray sky, and an evening storm coming,
Will it rain, why would you even ask?

You are no stranger to me or my fears,
Nor to this silence, that I know you know so well...
I know I was never ideal to begin with,
But are you now distant? Would I ever know? Are you there? I can barely tell.

You've always mattered, you always will,
I don't know how this would end...
I wish you could see me for the good things, if any.
I wish you'd care for just once, care just enough to understand!