Rediscovery

Days are cold, nights just getting longer,
I wanna live of hope. God, make me stronger...
The wind that blows, seemingly blows not for me,
It pours down heavily, the rains though fall not for me...

It certainly is me, and me that knows,
I would'nt have been here, had you not been so close...
If i push you know, i'm pushing myself too,
I might just fall of the edge, but i'll still be true..

Brain's so full of things, it just aches to let go,
But then let go of what, let go of what, i don't know...
It's true i don't claim everything i do is what i want,
But then what i want, what i want, i don't know...

I'm fighting my own guts, fighting to stay afloat,
I'm just in so deep, no one sees me, no one knows...
I know i've wasted time,  it's a little hard to begin,
But i know it's gonna be me, i'll fight till the end...

Have not lost faith, not in me at all,
Confused i may have been, it's not gonna make me fall...
I'll face myself, my wrongs, my dark,
I'll not back down, not from myself, no i'll not...

This confused me has gotta go, i'll be stronger than myself,
I'll find my way back, i promise, just don't let the past swell...
Walk with me as i bleed, but don't try to cure my pain,
It's my road to rediscovery, it's my road, all the same !!!

via Heartbeats . . .

Hands on my heart, eyes shut.
Dreaming of you. Smiling, via Heartbeats . . .
Cell phone in a hand,  waiting for your call.
Waiting for you. Sighing, via Heartbeats . . .

I see you next to me, no dream this time
You lie there holding my hand. . .
I tuck you in, i watch you sleep
I see your eyes flicker. Searching for me, via Heartbeats . . .

All looks bright when i wake up.
I see your shadow across the door . . .
See you shying away from me.
See you smiling as you move. Laughing, via Heartbeats . . .

I reach for you and touch your hand.
Seems like all the world's come down... come down to my heaven.
They wave at us, giggle around.
They touch us as we kiss. Blessing us , via Heartbeats . . .

We part, we meet, we fight, we repeat.
Can't wait for the life i want . . .
Can't wait for the nights i'll be with you . . .
Can't wait for the days to come.
No when, no why, just love in life . . .
Just me being good, you being better . . . you being by my side . . .

The beautiful life that makes us smile. Feeling you . . . via Heartbeats.
For now i sleep, i dream of you. Closer to you . . .  via Heartbeats.

Aaromale. . .

Wish i'd known more... seems difficult to comprehend.

The pain, the moments, the magic of it....

A string so fragile, strengthened over time, broken as well.

Wish i'd been stronger...could answer your when, how, where and why?

I fail to adapt, to learn, to improve...

In your love, from your questions, from your expectations, from your caring.

But when the rain comes down and i see your face trembling...

I could just hold you till the end of everything.

People seem estranged, as i lie under this saddened sky...

Head full of words, full of thoughts. Nothing more than just words, just thoughts.

Wish i could just go back to the wilderness, to my summer of wither...

Or wish i could see the future, wish i could see you there.

I say a few words, they go unheard... and i sit in silence, moments gone...

I'm left there saddened, and i wait for my turn.

But when i see you there, smiling or fuming...i see you there caring, or scolding...

I can wait all my life in silence.Can wait till the end of everything.

I make the same mistakes, i voice the same nonsense...

I know it hurts you somewhere, and i end up picking the pieces of the mess i made.

But when i hear your voice saying you love me, i feel blessed, feel glad...

I could love you till i end, could love you till the end of everything.

P.S. "Aaromale" translates to O Beloved !