No stranger...

A week long dull, of gloom and lull,
A coherent silence around...
Mounds of silt and flowers strewn,
And all I hear is the lonely hound.

Yes I've known, I've always known,
You've told me how it's gonna be.
And yet, in silence, i close my eyes,
Not to pray, no not now. Not to pray, but to see.

I walk down cold, I walk down slow,
I look ahead but stare into nowhere...
Is the road just as lost as this heart,
Or is it just dark? Or were you never there?

I sit in tears and  flip these pages now,
Contemplating if this would last...
With this gray sky, and an evening storm coming,
Will it rain, why would you even ask?

You are no stranger to me or my fears,
Nor to this silence, that I know you know so well...
I know I was never ideal to begin with,
But are you now distant? Would I ever know? Are you there? I can barely tell.

You've always mattered, you always will,
I don't know how this would end...
I wish you could see me for the good things, if any.
I wish you'd care for just once, care just enough to understand!

Through everything... and more...

Through all the calls i never make,

Courtesy - #Seewhatyoudlike-tumblr

all the texts i write in vain...
Through all the ways i hurt you babe,
all the time i am inane...
Just wanna let you know...I love you babe!


Through all the smiles i bring to you,
all the joy that now remains...
Through all the words i write for you,
all the words that i just don't say...
Just wanna say today...I will not change!


Through all the tears I've made you cry,
all the sighs and all the pain...
Through aching head and sleepless nights,
all the time I wronged the rights...                           Just won't let things fade...Will make things right!


I love you girl, i may not be loud,
I may not call, stay under bout...
I may seem selfish, there is no doubt,
I may fail promises, i am not proud...
Just wanna stay with you...Hold you throughout!


I text you late, i make you wait,
I answer calls but hang up in haste...
I make you wonder what's inside me,
I make you wonder why you like me...
Just wanna wonder with you...Know me, find me!


Through all this nonsense and hurt i give,
I want to ask you to have belief...
I care enough to not let you cry,
Won't always falter, i'll make you smile...
Just wanna smile with you...Forget the fights!


Through texts, and calls, and skype and KFCs,
Through notes, and pictures, and movies and CCDs...
Through train rides, strange flights, walks in lonely alleys,
Through rooms, and malls and errands daily...

Through this and that and everything and more...
I love you babe... Trust me, stay sure!

Hear me out...Sing Along!

Words written are always better than words spoken...

I hate conversations and that's at least what i used to believe,
There's no point in sitting for hours, with goofy eyes, sipping coffee...
Unless we talk and not just speak!

And then there are these words unspoken,
So much that i need to say, i wish you could hear...
For hours i could just sit across the table in silence,
Say nothing at all, i could just look at you, i could smile with no reason...

The distant dream that you are for me...
And i still nurture hopes, and wait for you,
As i cross your path everyday, look around and sneak a glance...
In hope, maybe just maybe, someday you'd see me...
You'd hear those words, someday you'd listen!

So far away that you are from me...
But you've never been as close as you are now to me
And there's still no point in talks, just talks
Unless i tell you this, cross fingers and hope you believe

I know i like you, and i'm glad it is you...
'Coz had it not been you, these goofy eyes, these coffee mugs,
this staring at someone with people noticing...
would look downright stupid...it would look embarrassing!

And there's still no point in all of this,
It's just another So So song i sing...
A song i love, and hum all day...
In hopes you hear this unsung song, Hear me out, sing along! :)