...And to let go!

Flipping the pages of the year gone by,
I stumble across too many that catch my eye.
A year that has been a cocktail of emotions to say the least,
Of good times, of sorrow, of love and of grief.

Of pages with notes of love, Of pages of brutal mathematics,
Of pages where you just amused me, of pages of your crazy antics.
Of some pages that just withered away as time went by,
And some i could just rip off and still know I was right.

Of goals that I set out to meet,
Of a person that I wanted to be.
Of food and of places I never knew I'd go,
Of your hands in mine, of hearts, of bodies and of souls.

Of days I just woke up and crashed on the floor,
Of nights I could smile and sleep, I wish these were more.
Of the books I read and then some I wish I could read,
Of arguments I failed to settle, of sorry and of please.

Of smiles that I knew I could conjure for them,
Of tears that dried on their cheeks, of words full of haws and hems.
Of cheesecakes and coffee places, of grumpy faces and trial rooms,
Of empty lanes, Of crowded streets, Of talks of bliss and also of doom.

Of a place so new to me, yet so welcoming,
Of people so simple and yet so heartwarming.
Of tears I cried and those I brought to others too,
Of the smiles I soaked into and of jokes I could make a few.

Of office woes, of holiday blues, of double-deckers and candy crush,
Of frittatas and movies and superheroes and other such silly stuff.
Of those sad days and weeks and months, of my faults and of yours,
Of those fights I would rather avoid,  Of drifting away off course.

Of a thousand pictures, Of hundreds of moments, Of many kisses and hugs,
Of flashes, Of rides. Of warmth and of snug.
Of weekends I cherished, Of Mondays I'd rather stay buried,
Of songs we sang, and Of love we couldn't carry.

Of blank pages and star gazes, Of new faces and of new dreams...
Of a person I started the year with, of a person that ended it for me.
Of the small, the little and the tiniest happiness that I was dying to make my own...
Of the big, the largest and the hardest things I had to let go, I let them all go.

A beginning of the year so unknown to me. An end of the year so gloomy, so low...
A January that I'll always remember, A December I wish I could just let go.
A May that just went by, shook me and then changed everything,
An August of orchids and smiles I could only imagine.
A March that will always be missed and remembered...
An October I just wish had never occurred.

A year I hold on to so tight,
A year I wish I could just rewrite...
A year of pain, A year of love, A year of hurt and of dread.
2014 made me whole. 2014 broke me to shreds.

A new year now, same old me though,
With hopes to have learnt, with hopes to be better and to grow...
And I'll need you here with me, I always will,
To help me, To stand back up, To hold on to better things, and to let go!